April 27 - Pregnancy

Pregnancy

Tonight, I chatted with a friend’s daughter, who is eight months pregnant. She is ready to have the baby and the sooner the better. This brought back memories for me of my pregnancies.

It has been over a decade since I was pregnant, but I remember it like yesterday. I loved the feeling of having my baby with me day and night. I do remember wishing for the pregnancy to be over, but I believe that as mothers we have to get so miserable at the end of our pregnancy that we are willing to do whatever it takes to deliver the precious gift of a child.

I will never forget the feeling of separation from Morgan, shortly after her birth. Todd went with her and the nurse to the nursery. I was left in my room with my diet coke (you can see that this addition to diet coke has been going on for a long time). I place my hand on my stomach as I had done for the past months and she was gone. I had learned to love the feeling of having my baby with me at all times. I had just given birth to a beautiful child, but I immediately felt empty when she was away from me.

I loved pregnancy, because I was with my child 100 percent of the time, but that is not possible in life. I realized as I matured as a mother that the feeling of emptiness would come back time and time again – The first day at daycare, the first day of school, the first day of summer camp, the first sleep over and now as my baby girl looks into the future it is only a year before she looks at the next stage of independence – college. I am sure that I will have that feeling of emptiness all over again, but this stage will be over and it is time to move on to the next one.

I am not be able to be with my children 100 percent of the time like we were in the beginning, but no matter what we will always have a special bond of mother and child.

Blessings
Robin